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❝ give your tears back to the ocean. there is no use for them anymore. ❞

-k. azizian

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emma
she . her
infp
caucasian / filipino
july 20

likes
music
art
history
space
fashion
candles
rain
films

dislikes
math
bugs
humidity

the martian 2015
once upon a time in hollywood 2019
black swan 2010
top gun maverick 2022
whiplash 2014
inglorious basterds 2009
elvis 2022
soul 2020
everybody wants some 2016

byf I'm a minor. I don't have all the time in the world to post. I focus on my mental health a lot because of my anxiety and school.
dni if: you aren't 13-18, you won't support me or my friends, you don't like mitski

dear marcy, you will forever be my best friend. I will always remind people of how close we are even if we part ways. I can't remember the last time we spent a day separated. even when we fight, we take breaks, we have different opinions, I still feel like we'll never stop think differently of each other. I've never really felt so comfortable with one of my best friends before. I literally feel like I share at least one physical part of myself with you because we're exactly the same. and when we aren't, we never shame each other. different opinions and different likes. a couple years ago, I always dreamed of having a friend like you because I remember how shitty it was like being around types of people on the internet and at school. I feel like I finally have that now. it's only been a little over a year and I feel like I've known you since birth honestly. I could continue this paragraph forever but I obviously can't, but I love you so fucking much <3

I think art is beautiful, inspiring, and a story-telling method of showing emotion. a lot of artists use it to express it, but most people look at it for detail and beauty. thoughts change completely when we look at the true story behind it. to me, I love using art to express interests and possibilities itself. art makes me feel possible. but when I look at it and learn the stories, I feel so many emotions. I feel happiness, sadness, inspired, but mostly I feel credible. credible for not only feeling inspired, but feeling like I can do the same thing artists do. I never fully thought of what I want to do in the future, but I would never want to do something that won't involve art. whether it is painting, animation, fashion, photography, or even film. art comes in so many shapes. everyone will say that I'm amazing at it, and they can trust me with it. I feel so happy when people say that because I feel the exact same way about other artwork.

I want to travel the world. i love the earth. it has everything we possibly could need but we are still destroying it. this place was made for us to live and we're constantly making it an unsafe place for us to live. the earth has so many places and some places weren't even explored yet which is scary, but still fascinating. sometimes i have a bad day and I usually feel like I don't want to be here anymore, but I think about what I'm living for and searching for. I'll never think it's about society, or about work, I think of creativity and nature. those are the things I want to live for in the future because they're the things I don't want to die without experiencing. Italy, Washington, the Netherlands, Hawaii, and more are places I dream of traveling. some day I'm afraid I won't be able to do these things because of how much we're destroying our earth and I don't think it deserves this.

films will make you feel absolutely every emotion. you'll feel defeat, like once it's over or someone you love leaves. joy, like when something funny happens or the excitement when the ending you were wishing happened. sadness, like your favorite character dies or everything somehow goes wrong. these are all that should be presented in films because they're what the creators are hoping the audience feels. that's all that matters to them. once they feel that they told a story that will be loved by people around the world. like art, films inspire me. they give me emotions where I feel attached or broken. or emotions where I say, "oh my goodness. that is exactly what I needed to see or hear in my life." films like good will hunting, or soul, or somehow even fantastic mr. fox helped me realize that I am perfectly fine where I am and who I am, mentally. I love the feeling of watching a movie with my father. or walking out of a theater thinking "god damn, that changed my life." when I edit films, I feel like I get to be apart of something that i fit into like a puzzle piece. everything bad gets sucked out of my head and put somewhere else when I watch a movie or show that I connect to or feel comfortable with. shitty friends and shitty feelings will no longer matter to me in the next 5 years. but when they come back, I put myself with my best friend, marcy. or go to Pinterest and look at my boards. or look at art and watch it inspire me to draw. or find a beautiful place somewhere and say, "I want to go here and live here until I'm old so I can get away from everything." or watch movies that I want to pass down to other people who may like it or relate to it. I love it. I love the feeling.